The Nantucket Project: Day 7 after Irene: Page 64
"Whenever you notice that voice, you will also realize that you are not the voice, but the one who is aware of it. In fact, you are...
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
Day 8
For some reason I suppose to make sense of my journey I need to explain that I have read many books before writing this blog this summer. I have read every book by Eckhart Tolle, Deepak Chopra, The Holy Bible, The Holy Qur'an and several other books about Buddha.
So after writing that I feel that I have been on the journey since June and have made some incredible progress.
Today, I tested myself of sorts. My inner self, Being, or whatever name you want to call it, my inner intuition has placed visuals in my head of me sitting on Main Street, on a Nantucket bench to just observe.....just observe. That's the only feeling"I gave" or "Being" gave me, saying that implies that we are seperate but I know we are one but words can not explain how it happens.....sorry. So, so shits and giggles I did what I was feeling and the results were intense. I was watching people for hours today, some with what some would say irritating voices, some who wanted me to hear me hear them brag on how much they spent on this or that, husband who just wanted peace and quite and not have to go in this shop or that shop with their wives. It was a fun day especially with the husbands who can't take their wives compulsion to shop but accepted it and did not resist, but surrendered to what is......pretty cool. I observed big ego " can you believe I paid 3800.00 for that dress" and the coolest part was I was AWARE, in the zone, and did not judge, label, project I was just me sitting on a cobblestone bench observing. My favorite part was when I gentleman from South Carolina , who was sitting with me outside the Joy West Collection across from the old movie theater said" your wife in their too" and I said "no I am observing people for a book I am reading" and he replied "that must be some book" and I said " well it's a collection of several books on the human condition or dysfunction of sorts". He sort of humphed in a exhalation of breath and said" well that's the most dandiest thing I have heard, would you care to explain that across the street for a beer and I said" sure". So, there we are at Cy's and I explain the books I have read, the journey I am on and sipping on a Cisco Whale Tail Pale Ale which I dislike but he ordered...suffice it to say we ended up at Wendy's Bookworks where he purchased four books of Eckhart Tolle,........so I suppose my Being is on a progressive route and perhaps has turned on on another light in the Nantucket fog.
Have an awesome day,
Jeremy
So after writing that I feel that I have been on the journey since June and have made some incredible progress.
Today, I tested myself of sorts. My inner self, Being, or whatever name you want to call it, my inner intuition has placed visuals in my head of me sitting on Main Street, on a Nantucket bench to just observe.....just observe. That's the only feeling"I gave" or "Being" gave me, saying that implies that we are seperate but I know we are one but words can not explain how it happens.....sorry. So, so shits and giggles I did what I was feeling and the results were intense. I was watching people for hours today, some with what some would say irritating voices, some who wanted me to hear me hear them brag on how much they spent on this or that, husband who just wanted peace and quite and not have to go in this shop or that shop with their wives. It was a fun day especially with the husbands who can't take their wives compulsion to shop but accepted it and did not resist, but surrendered to what is......pretty cool. I observed big ego " can you believe I paid 3800.00 for that dress" and the coolest part was I was AWARE, in the zone, and did not judge, label, project I was just me sitting on a cobblestone bench observing. My favorite part was when I gentleman from South Carolina , who was sitting with me outside the Joy West Collection across from the old movie theater said" your wife in their too" and I said "no I am observing people for a book I am reading" and he replied "that must be some book" and I said " well it's a collection of several books on the human condition or dysfunction of sorts". He sort of humphed in a exhalation of breath and said" well that's the most dandiest thing I have heard, would you care to explain that across the street for a beer and I said" sure". So, there we are at Cy's and I explain the books I have read, the journey I am on and sipping on a Cisco Whale Tail Pale Ale which I dislike but he ordered...suffice it to say we ended up at Wendy's Bookworks where he purchased four books of Eckhart Tolle,........so I suppose my Being is on a progressive route and perhaps has turned on on another light in the Nantucket fog.
Have an awesome day,
Jeremy
Monday, August 29, 2011
The Nantucket Project: Day 7 after Irene
The Nantucket Project: Day 7 after Irene: Page 64
"Whenever you notice that voice, you will also realize that you are not the voice, but the one who is aware of it. In fact, you are...
"Whenever you notice that voice, you will also realize that you are not the voice, but the one who is aware of it. In fact, you are...
Day 7 after Irene
Page 64
"Whenever you notice that voice, you will also realize that you are not the voice, but the one who is aware of it. In fact, you are awareness that is aware of the voice. In the background, there is the awareness. In the forground, there is the voice, the thinker. In this way you are becoming free of ego, free of the unobserved mind. The moment you become aware of the ego in you, it is strictly speaking no longer the ego , but just an old, conditioned mind pattern"
"Ego implied unawareness. Awareness and ego cannot co-exist"
In my life, as in your I am sure you are constantly bombarded with ego. In the hotel business in is constant from external and internal guest.....un-relenting. Recognizing it ie easy and recognizing it you always is not that easy.....your mind drifts and you almost try and force yourself to be present. You can not force yourself to be present you just need to become present.....silly huh...forcing is a sort of resisting is it not. I came across a beautiful tool in Eckharts book the 'The Practicing of Now" highly recommended by me. I have had a situation with a co-worker it is a non-participation of teamwork, we work together, we have different idea's of management style, he yells, swears and is a bear of sorts and younger. I have more respect of staff to raise my voice or swear for me it's just being courteous and respectful. However he and I pretty much do not engage each other and choose to ignore each other, works for him but not for me as I have been carrying alot of resentment towards his unconscious state of ego. In the book "Practicing the Power of Now. I found a helpful and powerful tool.
Page 110 of : The Power of Now
"Feel yourself becoming transparent, as it were, without the solidity of a material body. Now allow the noise, or whatever causes a negative reaction, to pass right through you. It is no longer hitting a wall(resistance) inside of you"
This practice has changed my relationship with my coworker immensely as we get along grand now. We help each other whenever we can it is as if our mutual presence has changed from resistance to accepting and surrendering. This exercise it is immensely helpful with unhappy guests who complain about everything. They no longer fester in me and pollute my Being, a calmness enters my Being which is cool. Don't take my mind for it......test it. The old saying "it goes in one ear and out the other" was not true for me because it usually stopped in the center of my brain, the unconscious, and fester.
Have a great day,
Jeremy
"Whenever you notice that voice, you will also realize that you are not the voice, but the one who is aware of it. In fact, you are awareness that is aware of the voice. In the background, there is the awareness. In the forground, there is the voice, the thinker. In this way you are becoming free of ego, free of the unobserved mind. The moment you become aware of the ego in you, it is strictly speaking no longer the ego , but just an old, conditioned mind pattern"
"Ego implied unawareness. Awareness and ego cannot co-exist"
In my life, as in your I am sure you are constantly bombarded with ego. In the hotel business in is constant from external and internal guest.....un-relenting. Recognizing it ie easy and recognizing it you always is not that easy.....your mind drifts and you almost try and force yourself to be present. You can not force yourself to be present you just need to become present.....silly huh...forcing is a sort of resisting is it not. I came across a beautiful tool in Eckharts book the 'The Practicing of Now" highly recommended by me. I have had a situation with a co-worker it is a non-participation of teamwork, we work together, we have different idea's of management style, he yells, swears and is a bear of sorts and younger. I have more respect of staff to raise my voice or swear for me it's just being courteous and respectful. However he and I pretty much do not engage each other and choose to ignore each other, works for him but not for me as I have been carrying alot of resentment towards his unconscious state of ego. In the book "Practicing the Power of Now. I found a helpful and powerful tool.
Page 110 of : The Power of Now
"Feel yourself becoming transparent, as it were, without the solidity of a material body. Now allow the noise, or whatever causes a negative reaction, to pass right through you. It is no longer hitting a wall(resistance) inside of you"
This practice has changed my relationship with my coworker immensely as we get along grand now. We help each other whenever we can it is as if our mutual presence has changed from resistance to accepting and surrendering. This exercise it is immensely helpful with unhappy guests who complain about everything. They no longer fester in me and pollute my Being, a calmness enters my Being which is cool. Don't take my mind for it......test it. The old saying "it goes in one ear and out the other" was not true for me because it usually stopped in the center of my brain, the unconscious, and fester.
Have a great day,
Jeremy
Saturday, August 27, 2011
The Nantucket Project: Day 5 and 6 in the threat of a hurricane
The Nantucket Project: Day 5 and 6 in the threat of a hurricane: Wow I picked up some 87 readers is the last couple of days....I am surprised as I thought I was just keeping a personal journal or sorts but...
Day 5 and 6 in the threat of a hurricane
Wow I picked up some 87 readers is the last couple of days....I am surprised as I thought I was just keeping a personal journal or sorts but the hurricane situation has kept me busy but Present. I have for the last two days been very busy with guests stressed out trying to get off this beautiful Rock. I have been witness to how people can obsess over things they can't control and how fear can become so obsessive and perhaps even enjoyable to some. I am trying to stay in the "Now" as much as I can during the day which honestly means about 5% of the day. It is so easy for the mind to wander and being sucked up in other people's vortex of a black hole fear. I am staying very focused and learning so much. Lily pond has been my solitude during these last two days. I love the place, so much energy emanating from such a lovely, peaceful place. I run into more like minded people who enjoy the same qualities as I do. Yesterday, it was sunny and I had about a hour of free time. I quickly drove my mountain bike over their once my break started, I took off my sandals, sat on the boardwalk and just became "present", aware of everything around me and enjoying my peace. A tall, blond woman walked past me coming off the boardwalk and asked me"anything good" and I replied "everything is good". I thought how flippin strange was that, what was she referring to and why did I answer her like that. A few minutes later I was I was prostrate, eyes closed and I heard someone near me and then I was being licked by a dog, I was sweaty and the dog licked me clean. I looked up and the older lady said " wow she just bathed you" and I replied " yes she did". The lady said " dont you just love Lily pond and I said " it's probably one of the most peaceful, blissful, places I have enjoyed in a long time". She said "oh, your new to Nantucket" and I said " I have been summering here since I was a kid but I have been away for a couple of decades" and she said" well, Dear you'll find your place again" and I replied " I already am darling". Then I was just blown away by these encounters of such and in fact I am still "feeling" how um-coincadental it probably was. I feel people and situations are being placed in my way to benefit my progress. When I go to bed at night, I pray I guess to myself every night, to become more aware of my mind, more aware of ego in myself and in others, to notice resistance and surrender and to look through the filters and love.. I hate to sound like a like a dead head but what long, strange trip it's been.
Happy hurricane Irene,
Jeremy
Happy hurricane Irene,
Jeremy
Thursday, August 25, 2011
Day 4
Whoa a busy day for all us Nantucketer's getting ready for a little blow from Mother Nature, pulling the boat out and cleaning up the yard. I did spend some time in the "New Earth" today in the chapter on complaining and resentment and have identified with some of the following:
Page 62
"Resentment is the emotion that goes with with complaining and the mental labeling of people and adds even more energy to the ego. Resentment means to feel bitter, indignant, aggrieved, or offended. You resent other peoples greed,their dishonesty, their lack of intergrity, what they are doing, what they did in the past, what they said, what they failed to do, what they should have or should not have done. The ego loves it.
I can say that I have felt pretty much all these emotions in my lifetime and perhaps still carry some or should I be just honest and say I still do towards my ex-wife regarding child custody issues. I could probably go out on a limb and say if your reading this then I am sure you have too.
Mr. Tolle has some clarity raising thoughts concerning this:
"Nonreaction to the ego in others is one of the most effective ways not only of going beyond ego in yourself but also of dissolving the collective human ego".
Page 63
"Nonreaction is not weakness but strength. Another word for nonreaction is forgiveness. To forgive is to overlook, or rather to look through. You look through the ego to the sanity that is in every human being as his or her essence"
I still choose to smile every time someone throw's their ego my way or I notice my ego trying to pop out. I feel when I smile I am acknowledging that these people are not even aware of what they are unconsciously doing so why should I jump in their unconscious and feed their ego. I smile and let them think I am took the short bus to school or an ignoramus, either way it works for both of us. Today for my daily meditation I went to the boardwalks on Liberty Street I am not quite sure of the name of the park but it so peaceful....ah sorry gotta run for now.
Have a great day,
Jeremy
Page 62
"Resentment is the emotion that goes with with complaining and the mental labeling of people and adds even more energy to the ego. Resentment means to feel bitter, indignant, aggrieved, or offended. You resent other peoples greed,their dishonesty, their lack of intergrity, what they are doing, what they did in the past, what they said, what they failed to do, what they should have or should not have done. The ego loves it.
I can say that I have felt pretty much all these emotions in my lifetime and perhaps still carry some or should I be just honest and say I still do towards my ex-wife regarding child custody issues. I could probably go out on a limb and say if your reading this then I am sure you have too.
Mr. Tolle has some clarity raising thoughts concerning this:
"Nonreaction to the ego in others is one of the most effective ways not only of going beyond ego in yourself but also of dissolving the collective human ego".
Page 63
"Nonreaction is not weakness but strength. Another word for nonreaction is forgiveness. To forgive is to overlook, or rather to look through. You look through the ego to the sanity that is in every human being as his or her essence"
I still choose to smile every time someone throw's their ego my way or I notice my ego trying to pop out. I feel when I smile I am acknowledging that these people are not even aware of what they are unconsciously doing so why should I jump in their unconscious and feed their ego. I smile and let them think I am took the short bus to school or an ignoramus, either way it works for both of us. Today for my daily meditation I went to the boardwalks on Liberty Street I am not quite sure of the name of the park but it so peaceful....ah sorry gotta run for now.
Have a great day,
Jeremy
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
The Nantucket Project: The purpose of The Nantucket Project
The Nantucket Project: The purpose of The Nantucket Project: The purpose of the Nantucket Project is simply to experience real joy and purpose in my life. I have like so many developed and pursued pers...
The Nantucket Project: Day 1
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The Nantucket Project: Day 2
The Nantucket Project: Day 2: Let me preface this by saying again that I have read all three books by Eckhart Tolle and countless others this summer but now I am taking e...
The Nantucket Project: The purpose of The Nantucket Project
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Day 3
So, far this has been a wonderful experience in so many levels. I have learned so much about myself and it seems the learning never stops. The ego is a powerful instrument for a unhappy life I wish I could just click it off like my laptop. Anyone who thinks it's so easy to separate your thoughts, emotions from the Source, Being, The I Am, has not really tried. It is work but with work instead of being paid weekly, you get paid every day.
Page 54
"What you may be aware of as a voice in your head that never stops speaking is the stream of incessant and compulsive thinking. When every thought absorbs your attention completely, when you are identified with the voice in your head and the emotions that accompany it that you lose yourself in every thought and every emotion, then you are totally identified with form and therefore in the grip of ego..............this is the forgetfulness of Being, the primary error, the illusion of absolute separateness that turn reality into a nightmare".
Page57
"Whenever tragic loss occurs, you either resist or you yield. Some people become bitter or deeply resentful; others become compassionate, wise, and loving. Yeilding means inner acceptance of what is. You are open to life".
Page 59
"Most people are so completely identified with the voice in your head-the incessant stream of involuntary and compulsive thinking and the emotions that accompany it-that we may desribe them as being possessed by their mind. As long as you completely unaware of this, you take the thinker to be who you are. This is the egoic mind".
Page 60
"The content of ego varies from person to person but in every ego the same structure operates. In other words: Egos only differ on the surface. Deep down they are all the same......The live on identification and separation. When you live through the mind made self comprised of thought and emotion that is the ego, the basis for your identity is precarious because thought and emotion are by their very nature ephemeral, fleeting. So every ego is continuously struggling for survival, trying to protect and enlarge itself".
When I first read those words a deep sense of dread came upon me as if to say I am screwed. I am too messed up to get better. My world is over but in a sense it was. I feel that it I, The Being, saw the separation and I noticed that their was in essence two of me, one that is dysfunctional and insane and one that has a hope for joy. I choose the joy and became aware of the other me, the f--ked up me that was willing and yearning for change. This morning I rode my bike to Squam Farm again because it was such a beautiful day and I really didn't want to hang around Siasconscet for the day. I went my meadow and just watched nature as still as it could be. The rabbits were out and about foraging for food, the willows swaying from the breeze and the tree's still as can be rooted into life itself. I imagined that I was a tree inhaling in the sunshine and exhaling oxygen for survival, feeling the depth of my roots underneath then I closed my eyes and a loud noise of tourists came upon me. I heard some women ask me if I was being disturbed. I opened my eyes and the vividness, the colors, the clarity were so bright and I thought is this how the Earth really looks like and what inside me made it look so ordinary......then snap back to the lady "of course your not disturbing me this parcel is for everyone to enjoy". What I really wanted to say probably would have had them hauling ass to the park rangers residence as I have said "I am a work in progress" I could have stayed a tree for a while longer but their is tomorrow.
Have a great day,
Jeremy
Page 54
"What you may be aware of as a voice in your head that never stops speaking is the stream of incessant and compulsive thinking. When every thought absorbs your attention completely, when you are identified with the voice in your head and the emotions that accompany it that you lose yourself in every thought and every emotion, then you are totally identified with form and therefore in the grip of ego..............this is the forgetfulness of Being, the primary error, the illusion of absolute separateness that turn reality into a nightmare".
Page57
"Whenever tragic loss occurs, you either resist or you yield. Some people become bitter or deeply resentful; others become compassionate, wise, and loving. Yeilding means inner acceptance of what is. You are open to life".
Page 59
"Most people are so completely identified with the voice in your head-the incessant stream of involuntary and compulsive thinking and the emotions that accompany it-that we may desribe them as being possessed by their mind. As long as you completely unaware of this, you take the thinker to be who you are. This is the egoic mind".
Page 60
"The content of ego varies from person to person but in every ego the same structure operates. In other words: Egos only differ on the surface. Deep down they are all the same......The live on identification and separation. When you live through the mind made self comprised of thought and emotion that is the ego, the basis for your identity is precarious because thought and emotion are by their very nature ephemeral, fleeting. So every ego is continuously struggling for survival, trying to protect and enlarge itself".
When I first read those words a deep sense of dread came upon me as if to say I am screwed. I am too messed up to get better. My world is over but in a sense it was. I feel that it I, The Being, saw the separation and I noticed that their was in essence two of me, one that is dysfunctional and insane and one that has a hope for joy. I choose the joy and became aware of the other me, the f--ked up me that was willing and yearning for change. This morning I rode my bike to Squam Farm again because it was such a beautiful day and I really didn't want to hang around Siasconscet for the day. I went my meadow and just watched nature as still as it could be. The rabbits were out and about foraging for food, the willows swaying from the breeze and the tree's still as can be rooted into life itself. I imagined that I was a tree inhaling in the sunshine and exhaling oxygen for survival, feeling the depth of my roots underneath then I closed my eyes and a loud noise of tourists came upon me. I heard some women ask me if I was being disturbed. I opened my eyes and the vividness, the colors, the clarity were so bright and I thought is this how the Earth really looks like and what inside me made it look so ordinary......then snap back to the lady "of course your not disturbing me this parcel is for everyone to enjoy". What I really wanted to say probably would have had them hauling ass to the park rangers residence as I have said "I am a work in progress" I could have stayed a tree for a while longer but their is tomorrow.
Have a great day,
Jeremy
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
Day 2
Let me preface this by saying again that I have read all three books by Eckhart Tolle and countless others this summer but now I am taking each book a chapter at a time and relating it to my journey.
Page 42
"When you detect egoic behavior in yourself, smile. At times you may even laugh. How could humanity have been taken in by this for so long? Above all, know that the ego isn't personal. It isn't who you are. If you consider the ego to be your personal problem, that's just more ego".
People who know me at my job are so curious why I am smiling all the time at work. Everyone wants to know who my new girlfriend is.....and I laugh. I smile when I notice my ego trying to work. I smile when my co-workers are so involved in ego. I smile when my guests through their ego around.....I am a smiling fool. They must think I am on drugs or something. This is why I love Mr. Tolle's observation "how could humanity been taken by this". When you are the watcher and the listener it is so bloody obvious and people think I am bonkers because I am just smiling. I love it...HA.
Page 49
"For many people their sense of self-worth is intimately bound up with their physical strength, good looks, fitness and external appearance. Many feel a diminished sense of self-worth because they percieve their body as ugly or imperfect"
This statement hit home way too hard. This was one of Oprah's AHA moments. I am one of the boy's at the gym who lifts heavy weights, has a large physique and is sort of into his looks. I hit the gym every day, ride my bike all over Nantucket and am always tan so this will something I need to work on.....I forgot who said "power is weakness poising as strength". I guess my ego wants everyone to think I am strong because inside I am weak and scared. But I am watching.
Page 53
"When you are in touch with the inner body, you are not identified with your mind. This is to say, you are no longer identified with form but moving away from form identification toward formlessness, which we may also call Being. It is your essence identity"
Today I did spent alot time finding gaps in thought. This is something I have been working on because the more space in gaps in thoughts the longer gap in intervals become. This morning I went to Sankaty Head and watched the seals hunting for prey I had my eyes open and tried to become still and just be present and totally conscious. I really enjoyed my day watching them and the tourists reactions to the seals. I then went mountain biking to an of-road single track to Squam Farm. I came across a meadow with flowers and cat willows. I just sat and watched and be still. I then decided to close my eyes and breath and feel my presence and how connected I was with nature. When I opened my eyes nature seemed more vivid, more colorful, more brighter and more inviting. I am either starting to get a hang of this "stillness and presence or I inhaled way to much oxygen and was high as a kite. Then when I went to work I spent the whole night smiling like a dope on Quaaludes or something either way I like the inner feel of me now.
Have a great day,
Jeremy
Page 42
"When you detect egoic behavior in yourself, smile. At times you may even laugh. How could humanity have been taken in by this for so long? Above all, know that the ego isn't personal. It isn't who you are. If you consider the ego to be your personal problem, that's just more ego".
People who know me at my job are so curious why I am smiling all the time at work. Everyone wants to know who my new girlfriend is.....and I laugh. I smile when I notice my ego trying to work. I smile when my co-workers are so involved in ego. I smile when my guests through their ego around.....I am a smiling fool. They must think I am on drugs or something. This is why I love Mr. Tolle's observation "how could humanity been taken by this". When you are the watcher and the listener it is so bloody obvious and people think I am bonkers because I am just smiling. I love it...HA.
Page 49
"For many people their sense of self-worth is intimately bound up with their physical strength, good looks, fitness and external appearance. Many feel a diminished sense of self-worth because they percieve their body as ugly or imperfect"
This statement hit home way too hard. This was one of Oprah's AHA moments. I am one of the boy's at the gym who lifts heavy weights, has a large physique and is sort of into his looks. I hit the gym every day, ride my bike all over Nantucket and am always tan so this will something I need to work on.....I forgot who said "power is weakness poising as strength". I guess my ego wants everyone to think I am strong because inside I am weak and scared. But I am watching.
Page 53
"When you are in touch with the inner body, you are not identified with your mind. This is to say, you are no longer identified with form but moving away from form identification toward formlessness, which we may also call Being. It is your essence identity"
Today I did spent alot time finding gaps in thought. This is something I have been working on because the more space in gaps in thoughts the longer gap in intervals become. This morning I went to Sankaty Head and watched the seals hunting for prey I had my eyes open and tried to become still and just be present and totally conscious. I really enjoyed my day watching them and the tourists reactions to the seals. I then went mountain biking to an of-road single track to Squam Farm. I came across a meadow with flowers and cat willows. I just sat and watched and be still. I then decided to close my eyes and breath and feel my presence and how connected I was with nature. When I opened my eyes nature seemed more vivid, more colorful, more brighter and more inviting. I am either starting to get a hang of this "stillness and presence or I inhaled way to much oxygen and was high as a kite. Then when I went to work I spent the whole night smiling like a dope on Quaaludes or something either way I like the inner feel of me now.
Have a great day,
Jeremy
Monday, August 22, 2011
Day 1
Well I certainly picked the right place to become aware. Nantucket has it's share of every socioeconomic scale with ton's of ego to spare. In the "New Earth" I have outlined certain passages that I have identified with.
Page 26.
"When you don't cover up the world with words and labels, a sense of miracolous returns to your life that was lost a long time ago when humanity, instead of using thought, became possessed by thought".
I was shocked last night when I laid my head down for bed. My brain, my voice was vomiting non- stop it was almost like diarrhea of the brain. I could not shut it up until I realized I could by acknowledging it presence it and stop feeding it, per say. The thoughts that were running through my mind was a scattering of work, people and some disgusting mental images I mean I could not believe I thought this thoughts every night....control, alt, delete my computer is fried and ugly. It was not a easy thing to do even when I was walking down Main Street I would constantly label and judge people I did even know so fast as if in a mili-second they were judged and condemned by my ego. I am really insane and need to change but by realizing all this I noticed that it has changed by me becoming aware of it. Trust me I am far from enlightened but I can feel it changing.
Page 27
" That illusory self then becomes the basis for all further interpretations, or rather misinterpretations of reality, all thought processes, interactions, and relationships. Your reality becomes a reflection of the original illusion. The good news is: If you can recognize illusion as illusion, it disolves. The recognition of illusion is also it's ending. It's survival depends on your your mistaking it for reality. In the seeing of who you are not, the reality of who you are emerges by itself"
Wow, pretty profound words but thank heaven that I am becoming aware, who would want to live my life over again certainly not I. This evening at work I thought of all my guests as brothers and sisters of the same Father and did not need to label or judge them since we are all connected from The Source they should be loved and not labeled.
Page 37
"Most people don't inhabit a living reality, but a conceptualized one"
Page 41
"Life will give you whatever experience is most helpful for the evolution of your consciousness"
Huh, well that's nice...twenty years of chasing my tail like a dog...around and around and around and around well you got the picture but I AM HERE NOW.
This morning I was very excited to start my meditation on the beach and relaxing in the stillness of now. So I choose Pebble Beach just west of Tom Nevers. It was perfect morning sort of cool around 72 degrees, slightly cloudy, no one on the beach, monster waves, a woman and her dog about a mile down the beach and one stand up paddle surfer. I walked to the beach about twenty feet from the breaking waves and sat prone and started to work on my breathing.....in for four seconds and out for four seconds, and repeat, and repeat, and repeat and then a bite on my back. Horse flys with no other prey around swarmed me and became my challenge. I thought of what Eckhart would say......accept and surrender so I gave them my flesh. I had a thought of a book I read about some Lady who ran with an Aboriginal tribe and encountered the same problem and she let the insects clean the mucous out her nose. If she could do it so could I ...in for four out for four....they are ganging up on me now six bites at a time. I am become irritated now big time. So, I am still maintaining a positive frame of mind so I move up the beach. I sit back down, get prone, in for four out for four and Bam a monster horse fly bites on my side....it's stinging like all hell and I am majorly pissed off. They won today and what did I learn.......it is what it was....they won the battle but not the war.
Have a great day,
Jeremy
Page 26.
"When you don't cover up the world with words and labels, a sense of miracolous returns to your life that was lost a long time ago when humanity, instead of using thought, became possessed by thought".
I was shocked last night when I laid my head down for bed. My brain, my voice was vomiting non- stop it was almost like diarrhea of the brain. I could not shut it up until I realized I could by acknowledging it presence it and stop feeding it, per say. The thoughts that were running through my mind was a scattering of work, people and some disgusting mental images I mean I could not believe I thought this thoughts every night....control, alt, delete my computer is fried and ugly. It was not a easy thing to do even when I was walking down Main Street I would constantly label and judge people I did even know so fast as if in a mili-second they were judged and condemned by my ego. I am really insane and need to change but by realizing all this I noticed that it has changed by me becoming aware of it. Trust me I am far from enlightened but I can feel it changing.
Page 27
" That illusory self then becomes the basis for all further interpretations, or rather misinterpretations of reality, all thought processes, interactions, and relationships. Your reality becomes a reflection of the original illusion. The good news is: If you can recognize illusion as illusion, it disolves. The recognition of illusion is also it's ending. It's survival depends on your your mistaking it for reality. In the seeing of who you are not, the reality of who you are emerges by itself"
Wow, pretty profound words but thank heaven that I am becoming aware, who would want to live my life over again certainly not I. This evening at work I thought of all my guests as brothers and sisters of the same Father and did not need to label or judge them since we are all connected from The Source they should be loved and not labeled.
Page 37
"Most people don't inhabit a living reality, but a conceptualized one"
Page 41
"Life will give you whatever experience is most helpful for the evolution of your consciousness"
Huh, well that's nice...twenty years of chasing my tail like a dog...around and around and around and around well you got the picture but I AM HERE NOW.
This morning I was very excited to start my meditation on the beach and relaxing in the stillness of now. So I choose Pebble Beach just west of Tom Nevers. It was perfect morning sort of cool around 72 degrees, slightly cloudy, no one on the beach, monster waves, a woman and her dog about a mile down the beach and one stand up paddle surfer. I walked to the beach about twenty feet from the breaking waves and sat prone and started to work on my breathing.....in for four seconds and out for four seconds, and repeat, and repeat, and repeat and then a bite on my back. Horse flys with no other prey around swarmed me and became my challenge. I thought of what Eckhart would say......accept and surrender so I gave them my flesh. I had a thought of a book I read about some Lady who ran with an Aboriginal tribe and encountered the same problem and she let the insects clean the mucous out her nose. If she could do it so could I ...in for four out for four....they are ganging up on me now six bites at a time. I am become irritated now big time. So, I am still maintaining a positive frame of mind so I move up the beach. I sit back down, get prone, in for four out for four and Bam a monster horse fly bites on my side....it's stinging like all hell and I am majorly pissed off. They won today and what did I learn.......it is what it was....they won the battle but not the war.
Have a great day,
Jeremy
The purpose of The Nantucket Project
The purpose of the Nantucket Project is simply to experience real joy and purpose in my life. I have like so many developed and pursued personal, financial and professional goals in my life. For myself, when I reached the goal I only experience unease or complete un-satisfaction on all three area's. I have owned three business that were very successful. I have been married twice and divorced twice and have had countless meaningless relationships. I have traveled the world twice hoping that my next location will bring me happiness but it has not. I have placed my hopes in desires in people, places and things and I am still at a deep level, not happy. Please don't think that I am deeply disturbed our suicidal because I am not. I have experienced all that "life" has to offer and I have realized that "life" needs to be more. I have decided to put Eckhart Tolle to the test and see if his teachings could hold the answer to my quest. So, in early June of 2011 I moved to Nantucket and accepted a humble job with humble pay but which would give me ample time for self-betterment and I will share my results on this blog. I have just finished the last book " Stillness Speaks" and now will go back to the beginning "the New Earth" in a more academic and spiritual approach and encompass the teachings in my daily life.
Jeremy
Jeremy
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