The Nantucket Project: Day 7 after Irene: Page 64
"Whenever you notice that voice, you will also realize that you are not the voice, but the one who is aware of it. In fact, you are...
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
Day 8
For some reason I suppose to make sense of my journey I need to explain that I have read many books before writing this blog this summer. I have read every book by Eckhart Tolle, Deepak Chopra, The Holy Bible, The Holy Qur'an and several other books about Buddha.
So after writing that I feel that I have been on the journey since June and have made some incredible progress.
Today, I tested myself of sorts. My inner self, Being, or whatever name you want to call it, my inner intuition has placed visuals in my head of me sitting on Main Street, on a Nantucket bench to just observe.....just observe. That's the only feeling"I gave" or "Being" gave me, saying that implies that we are seperate but I know we are one but words can not explain how it happens.....sorry. So, so shits and giggles I did what I was feeling and the results were intense. I was watching people for hours today, some with what some would say irritating voices, some who wanted me to hear me hear them brag on how much they spent on this or that, husband who just wanted peace and quite and not have to go in this shop or that shop with their wives. It was a fun day especially with the husbands who can't take their wives compulsion to shop but accepted it and did not resist, but surrendered to what is......pretty cool. I observed big ego " can you believe I paid 3800.00 for that dress" and the coolest part was I was AWARE, in the zone, and did not judge, label, project I was just me sitting on a cobblestone bench observing. My favorite part was when I gentleman from South Carolina , who was sitting with me outside the Joy West Collection across from the old movie theater said" your wife in their too" and I said "no I am observing people for a book I am reading" and he replied "that must be some book" and I said " well it's a collection of several books on the human condition or dysfunction of sorts". He sort of humphed in a exhalation of breath and said" well that's the most dandiest thing I have heard, would you care to explain that across the street for a beer and I said" sure". So, there we are at Cy's and I explain the books I have read, the journey I am on and sipping on a Cisco Whale Tail Pale Ale which I dislike but he ordered...suffice it to say we ended up at Wendy's Bookworks where he purchased four books of Eckhart Tolle,........so I suppose my Being is on a progressive route and perhaps has turned on on another light in the Nantucket fog.
Have an awesome day,
Jeremy
So after writing that I feel that I have been on the journey since June and have made some incredible progress.
Today, I tested myself of sorts. My inner self, Being, or whatever name you want to call it, my inner intuition has placed visuals in my head of me sitting on Main Street, on a Nantucket bench to just observe.....just observe. That's the only feeling"I gave" or "Being" gave me, saying that implies that we are seperate but I know we are one but words can not explain how it happens.....sorry. So, so shits and giggles I did what I was feeling and the results were intense. I was watching people for hours today, some with what some would say irritating voices, some who wanted me to hear me hear them brag on how much they spent on this or that, husband who just wanted peace and quite and not have to go in this shop or that shop with their wives. It was a fun day especially with the husbands who can't take their wives compulsion to shop but accepted it and did not resist, but surrendered to what is......pretty cool. I observed big ego " can you believe I paid 3800.00 for that dress" and the coolest part was I was AWARE, in the zone, and did not judge, label, project I was just me sitting on a cobblestone bench observing. My favorite part was when I gentleman from South Carolina , who was sitting with me outside the Joy West Collection across from the old movie theater said" your wife in their too" and I said "no I am observing people for a book I am reading" and he replied "that must be some book" and I said " well it's a collection of several books on the human condition or dysfunction of sorts". He sort of humphed in a exhalation of breath and said" well that's the most dandiest thing I have heard, would you care to explain that across the street for a beer and I said" sure". So, there we are at Cy's and I explain the books I have read, the journey I am on and sipping on a Cisco Whale Tail Pale Ale which I dislike but he ordered...suffice it to say we ended up at Wendy's Bookworks where he purchased four books of Eckhart Tolle,........so I suppose my Being is on a progressive route and perhaps has turned on on another light in the Nantucket fog.
Have an awesome day,
Jeremy
Monday, August 29, 2011
The Nantucket Project: Day 7 after Irene
The Nantucket Project: Day 7 after Irene: Page 64
"Whenever you notice that voice, you will also realize that you are not the voice, but the one who is aware of it. In fact, you are...
"Whenever you notice that voice, you will also realize that you are not the voice, but the one who is aware of it. In fact, you are...
Day 7 after Irene
Page 64
"Whenever you notice that voice, you will also realize that you are not the voice, but the one who is aware of it. In fact, you are awareness that is aware of the voice. In the background, there is the awareness. In the forground, there is the voice, the thinker. In this way you are becoming free of ego, free of the unobserved mind. The moment you become aware of the ego in you, it is strictly speaking no longer the ego , but just an old, conditioned mind pattern"
"Ego implied unawareness. Awareness and ego cannot co-exist"
In my life, as in your I am sure you are constantly bombarded with ego. In the hotel business in is constant from external and internal guest.....un-relenting. Recognizing it ie easy and recognizing it you always is not that easy.....your mind drifts and you almost try and force yourself to be present. You can not force yourself to be present you just need to become present.....silly huh...forcing is a sort of resisting is it not. I came across a beautiful tool in Eckharts book the 'The Practicing of Now" highly recommended by me. I have had a situation with a co-worker it is a non-participation of teamwork, we work together, we have different idea's of management style, he yells, swears and is a bear of sorts and younger. I have more respect of staff to raise my voice or swear for me it's just being courteous and respectful. However he and I pretty much do not engage each other and choose to ignore each other, works for him but not for me as I have been carrying alot of resentment towards his unconscious state of ego. In the book "Practicing the Power of Now. I found a helpful and powerful tool.
Page 110 of : The Power of Now
"Feel yourself becoming transparent, as it were, without the solidity of a material body. Now allow the noise, or whatever causes a negative reaction, to pass right through you. It is no longer hitting a wall(resistance) inside of you"
This practice has changed my relationship with my coworker immensely as we get along grand now. We help each other whenever we can it is as if our mutual presence has changed from resistance to accepting and surrendering. This exercise it is immensely helpful with unhappy guests who complain about everything. They no longer fester in me and pollute my Being, a calmness enters my Being which is cool. Don't take my mind for it......test it. The old saying "it goes in one ear and out the other" was not true for me because it usually stopped in the center of my brain, the unconscious, and fester.
Have a great day,
Jeremy
"Whenever you notice that voice, you will also realize that you are not the voice, but the one who is aware of it. In fact, you are awareness that is aware of the voice. In the background, there is the awareness. In the forground, there is the voice, the thinker. In this way you are becoming free of ego, free of the unobserved mind. The moment you become aware of the ego in you, it is strictly speaking no longer the ego , but just an old, conditioned mind pattern"
"Ego implied unawareness. Awareness and ego cannot co-exist"
In my life, as in your I am sure you are constantly bombarded with ego. In the hotel business in is constant from external and internal guest.....un-relenting. Recognizing it ie easy and recognizing it you always is not that easy.....your mind drifts and you almost try and force yourself to be present. You can not force yourself to be present you just need to become present.....silly huh...forcing is a sort of resisting is it not. I came across a beautiful tool in Eckharts book the 'The Practicing of Now" highly recommended by me. I have had a situation with a co-worker it is a non-participation of teamwork, we work together, we have different idea's of management style, he yells, swears and is a bear of sorts and younger. I have more respect of staff to raise my voice or swear for me it's just being courteous and respectful. However he and I pretty much do not engage each other and choose to ignore each other, works for him but not for me as I have been carrying alot of resentment towards his unconscious state of ego. In the book "Practicing the Power of Now. I found a helpful and powerful tool.
Page 110 of : The Power of Now
"Feel yourself becoming transparent, as it were, without the solidity of a material body. Now allow the noise, or whatever causes a negative reaction, to pass right through you. It is no longer hitting a wall(resistance) inside of you"
This practice has changed my relationship with my coworker immensely as we get along grand now. We help each other whenever we can it is as if our mutual presence has changed from resistance to accepting and surrendering. This exercise it is immensely helpful with unhappy guests who complain about everything. They no longer fester in me and pollute my Being, a calmness enters my Being which is cool. Don't take my mind for it......test it. The old saying "it goes in one ear and out the other" was not true for me because it usually stopped in the center of my brain, the unconscious, and fester.
Have a great day,
Jeremy
Saturday, August 27, 2011
The Nantucket Project: Day 5 and 6 in the threat of a hurricane
The Nantucket Project: Day 5 and 6 in the threat of a hurricane: Wow I picked up some 87 readers is the last couple of days....I am surprised as I thought I was just keeping a personal journal or sorts but...
Day 5 and 6 in the threat of a hurricane
Wow I picked up some 87 readers is the last couple of days....I am surprised as I thought I was just keeping a personal journal or sorts but the hurricane situation has kept me busy but Present. I have for the last two days been very busy with guests stressed out trying to get off this beautiful Rock. I have been witness to how people can obsess over things they can't control and how fear can become so obsessive and perhaps even enjoyable to some. I am trying to stay in the "Now" as much as I can during the day which honestly means about 5% of the day. It is so easy for the mind to wander and being sucked up in other people's vortex of a black hole fear. I am staying very focused and learning so much. Lily pond has been my solitude during these last two days. I love the place, so much energy emanating from such a lovely, peaceful place. I run into more like minded people who enjoy the same qualities as I do. Yesterday, it was sunny and I had about a hour of free time. I quickly drove my mountain bike over their once my break started, I took off my sandals, sat on the boardwalk and just became "present", aware of everything around me and enjoying my peace. A tall, blond woman walked past me coming off the boardwalk and asked me"anything good" and I replied "everything is good". I thought how flippin strange was that, what was she referring to and why did I answer her like that. A few minutes later I was I was prostrate, eyes closed and I heard someone near me and then I was being licked by a dog, I was sweaty and the dog licked me clean. I looked up and the older lady said " wow she just bathed you" and I replied " yes she did". The lady said " dont you just love Lily pond and I said " it's probably one of the most peaceful, blissful, places I have enjoyed in a long time". She said "oh, your new to Nantucket" and I said " I have been summering here since I was a kid but I have been away for a couple of decades" and she said" well, Dear you'll find your place again" and I replied " I already am darling". Then I was just blown away by these encounters of such and in fact I am still "feeling" how um-coincadental it probably was. I feel people and situations are being placed in my way to benefit my progress. When I go to bed at night, I pray I guess to myself every night, to become more aware of my mind, more aware of ego in myself and in others, to notice resistance and surrender and to look through the filters and love.. I hate to sound like a like a dead head but what long, strange trip it's been.
Happy hurricane Irene,
Jeremy
Happy hurricane Irene,
Jeremy
Thursday, August 25, 2011
Day 4
Whoa a busy day for all us Nantucketer's getting ready for a little blow from Mother Nature, pulling the boat out and cleaning up the yard. I did spend some time in the "New Earth" today in the chapter on complaining and resentment and have identified with some of the following:
Page 62
"Resentment is the emotion that goes with with complaining and the mental labeling of people and adds even more energy to the ego. Resentment means to feel bitter, indignant, aggrieved, or offended. You resent other peoples greed,their dishonesty, their lack of intergrity, what they are doing, what they did in the past, what they said, what they failed to do, what they should have or should not have done. The ego loves it.
I can say that I have felt pretty much all these emotions in my lifetime and perhaps still carry some or should I be just honest and say I still do towards my ex-wife regarding child custody issues. I could probably go out on a limb and say if your reading this then I am sure you have too.
Mr. Tolle has some clarity raising thoughts concerning this:
"Nonreaction to the ego in others is one of the most effective ways not only of going beyond ego in yourself but also of dissolving the collective human ego".
Page 63
"Nonreaction is not weakness but strength. Another word for nonreaction is forgiveness. To forgive is to overlook, or rather to look through. You look through the ego to the sanity that is in every human being as his or her essence"
I still choose to smile every time someone throw's their ego my way or I notice my ego trying to pop out. I feel when I smile I am acknowledging that these people are not even aware of what they are unconsciously doing so why should I jump in their unconscious and feed their ego. I smile and let them think I am took the short bus to school or an ignoramus, either way it works for both of us. Today for my daily meditation I went to the boardwalks on Liberty Street I am not quite sure of the name of the park but it so peaceful....ah sorry gotta run for now.
Have a great day,
Jeremy
Page 62
"Resentment is the emotion that goes with with complaining and the mental labeling of people and adds even more energy to the ego. Resentment means to feel bitter, indignant, aggrieved, or offended. You resent other peoples greed,their dishonesty, their lack of intergrity, what they are doing, what they did in the past, what they said, what they failed to do, what they should have or should not have done. The ego loves it.
I can say that I have felt pretty much all these emotions in my lifetime and perhaps still carry some or should I be just honest and say I still do towards my ex-wife regarding child custody issues. I could probably go out on a limb and say if your reading this then I am sure you have too.
Mr. Tolle has some clarity raising thoughts concerning this:
"Nonreaction to the ego in others is one of the most effective ways not only of going beyond ego in yourself but also of dissolving the collective human ego".
Page 63
"Nonreaction is not weakness but strength. Another word for nonreaction is forgiveness. To forgive is to overlook, or rather to look through. You look through the ego to the sanity that is in every human being as his or her essence"
I still choose to smile every time someone throw's their ego my way or I notice my ego trying to pop out. I feel when I smile I am acknowledging that these people are not even aware of what they are unconsciously doing so why should I jump in their unconscious and feed their ego. I smile and let them think I am took the short bus to school or an ignoramus, either way it works for both of us. Today for my daily meditation I went to the boardwalks on Liberty Street I am not quite sure of the name of the park but it so peaceful....ah sorry gotta run for now.
Have a great day,
Jeremy
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